Bisous..My friend

It's tough for me to accept the decision you made at the very beginning. You chose to leave instead of staying. I have no rights to stop you but to wash my face with tears most of the time.
After sometime, I tried to be cool, tried to be ok, tried to smile n laugh all the time.
But things are not easy.
I took a very long time to cure everything, and now I'm cured.
The date of you leaving is getting nearer and nearer.
I'm back to the emo side of me.
I'm back to the time when you first told me you're leaving.
The pain, the sadness, those unforgettable fights and those happy moments we had together started to pop up again in my mind.
I can feel as though there's some1 stabbing my heart with a knife everyday.
I have no one to talk to.
I have no one having the same feeling as me.
I have no one to understand what am I feeling rite now.
and I'm wondering how long will it take again to be cured.
I'm in pain.
A major pain.



Take care.
N
All the best.
MY FRIEND

90210

"Not all scars show, not all wounds heal. Sometimes you can't always see the pain someone feels." - Anonymous

No longer the same

It has been a month since my last post. College started, full of assignments and projects.
I had a great time in college till I neglected my blog.
I love my college friends. I really love u guys, but do u noe wat I feel when you hurt me?
If you're not my close friend, I wouldn't even have wasted my tears because of you shouting at me, if i dun treat you as my close friend, I wouldn't even wanna ask you to do a favour for me, because I noe there's no such word as 'calculative' in friendship, if you're not my close friend, I wont even bother to waste my time organizing something 4 you.
I dun mind if you dun noe that I put a lot of effort in doing something 4 you, I dun mind if you talk to me in a sarcastic way, I dun mind if you make fun of me, but why you did something that I hate a lot to me???
I hate it when you scream and shout at me, I hate it when you just dun care about wat I said, and I hate it when you dun realize your mistakes and you continue doing the silly thing.
You've changed to another person just because you got new friends. Our friendship are even longer than them, but you rather stand on their side but not mine. I'm truly hurt.
But wat else can I say, it's your freedom to have your own gang, to have new friends.
But plz, dun get influence by them.
And start to feel who's gd to you and who's not.
Start to see who's sincere to you and who's not.
Open your eyes and look around.